If you happened to glance at the tags on this post, they wouldn’t all make sense. I think most of them are positive words that contradict the “stressed” portion of the post title.
Many good things are happening and it’s leaving me stressed. To the point of weird dreams!
My husband and I celebrated 15 wonderful years of marriage (we’ve only just begun!) yesterday and we are marking the occasion with a vow renewal at our home in just a few days. We host a big party or two each year, and this counts as one of them, so we are quite exited!
For whatever reason, though, my subconscious is driving me batty! I woke up this morning from a dream that only a few invitees showed up – but, as I was trying to figure out why most didn’t show up, I realized in my dream, our event was taking place the wrong day. Why was everything prepared on the wrong day? Why were certain key people there when they know it was the wrong day?
I blame my insecurities. They haunt me every minute of every day. There are so many times in my life I’ve been energized by the notion of doing something fun – just to have no one show up. It’s hard not to take that personally.
While I know for sure there will be many people there with us on our special day, my subconscious will continue to assault me with it’s special brand of torture.
I wish I could destroy it.
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