Just a bit…stressed!

If you happened to glance at the tags on this post, they wouldn’t all make sense.  I think most of them are positive words that contradict the “stressed” portion of the post title.

Many good things are happening and it’s leaving me stressed.  To the point of weird dreams!

My husband and I celebrated 15 wonderful years of marriage (we’ve only just begun!) yesterday and we are marking the occasion with a vow renewal at our home in just a few days.  We host a big party or two each year, and this counts as one of them, so we are quite exited!

For whatever reason, though, my subconscious is driving me batty!  I woke up this morning from a dream that only a few invitees showed up – but, as I was trying to figure out why most didn’t show up, I realized in my dream, our event was taking place the wrong day.  Why was everything prepared on the wrong day?  Why were certain key people there when they know it was the wrong day?

I blame my insecurities.  They haunt me every minute of every day.  There are so many times in my life I’ve been energized by the notion of doing something fun – just to have no one show up.  It’s hard not to take that personally.

While I know for sure there will be many people there with us on our special day, my subconscious will continue to assault me with it’s special brand of torture.

I wish I could destroy it.

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Part 6 of 23 Signs You’re Secretly an Introvert

6. You’re easily distracted.

Wait, what?  Oh, yes please! 😉

I’ve never been diagnosed with any kind of ADD, but I tell you what, I have some compulsions and I definitely have issues with being distracted.  Now that I’m clear on the whole introvert thing, I get it.

Whether working or at home, if I have too many things to accomplish in a day, I’m jumping from task to task until it’s all done.

Housecleaning is a toughie sometimes, depending on how much needs done.  I’ll start in one room, pass another and notice things that need done in there and completely forget that I was already involved elsewhere.  Eventually I’ll come back to the original task because I’ll realize I was working there first.  It’s frustrating and comical at the same time.

Work – oy vey.  I’m a hard worker, but I tell you, if I come in and I’m pounced on with a bunch of different tasks, or usually in my case – crises, I’ll freak out a little until I sort it all out in my mind and on paper.  Someone can’t volunteer so I have to find a replacement, someone needs this or that, I need to get my newsletter insert done, the computer is throwing an error – can I look at it?

SCREAM!  Once I get it under control in my mind, I’m all over it.  But to get to that point I have a little meltdown because it’s too much and I can’t prioritize it all that fast.  It doesn’t help that I’m a “pleaser” personality, too.  I want to be liked and I want to be seen doing a good job and I hate letting people down.

I almost always need a to-do list written down to stay on task. It helps so much, and it’s really rewarding to see, at the end of the day, all I accomplished.

Now I hope to finish the laundry I started yesterday and not end up cleaning out the garage because I had to take something to the trash can…:P

Happy Sunday, you crazies!

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