Just a bit…stressed!

If you happened to glance at the tags on this post, they wouldn’t all make sense.  I think most of them are positive words that contradict the “stressed” portion of the post title.

Many good things are happening and it’s leaving me stressed.  To the point of weird dreams!

My husband and I celebrated 15 wonderful years of marriage (we’ve only just begun!) yesterday and we are marking the occasion with a vow renewal at our home in just a few days.  We host a big party or two each year, and this counts as one of them, so we are quite exited!

For whatever reason, though, my subconscious is driving me batty!  I woke up this morning from a dream that only a few invitees showed up – but, as I was trying to figure out why most didn’t show up, I realized in my dream, our event was taking place the wrong day.  Why was everything prepared on the wrong day?  Why were certain key people there when they know it was the wrong day?

I blame my insecurities.  They haunt me every minute of every day.  There are so many times in my life I’ve been energized by the notion of doing something fun – just to have no one show up.  It’s hard not to take that personally.

While I know for sure there will be many people there with us on our special day, my subconscious will continue to assault me with it’s special brand of torture.

I wish I could destroy it.

Image Credit: QuickMeme.com

12 of 23 Signs You’re Secretly an Introvert

12. You’d rather be an expert at one thing than try to do everything.

“Jack of all trades, master of none.”  That would be me.  So, I can’t say I fit into this exactly.

If you’re anything like me, you jump around from one thing to another.  While “expert” is a pretty strong term, I become quite proficient at something and once I’ve kind of gotten all I can out of it, I tend to abandon it and move onto something else.

I’m not sure if I get bored or I just don’t feel I can or want to go any farther with what I’ve learned/mastered/excelled in.

If we get a new type of pet, I read up on it to make sure I do the best I can by that little creature.  I’m a professional photographer, but after it was an actual job for a while, it lost its magic.  I’ve never had a career, per se, because different things interest me at different times.  I think what works for me in my current job is things can grow and change – it doesn’t and shouldn’t be the same forever.

I am often drawn to a simple, repetitive type of work – but I know after a short while I would be clawing my way out.

So, I guess I’m just a wanderer – doing the best I can do at the time and moving onto something new that will challenge me again.

Image Credit:  Careers, Employment, and Enterprise Service